A new day

Well my cramps seemed to be going away, which is nice but now my queasiness seemed to have increased a bit! This morning as I was eating my cereal I didn't think I would be able to finish it and I love that cereal! My stomach started doing flip flops and I wasn't feeling too hot! I never got sick and haven't yet and I'm kinda hoping stays that way although I'm not sure what's worse, feeling sick and not puking or getting it over with and maybe feeling a bit better after ? I'm not a big fan of puking but this queasy/ sea sick feeling is starting to bother me?

As most of you already know I have recently lost weight (81lbs) to help me in getting pregnant and hopefully having a healthy pregnancy. So today is weigh in day and I was surprised to see that I have lost weight! I've been STARVING lately, well for the last 2 days I've been overly hungry, and I think I eat like every hour. I try to stick to eating "healthy" snacks like fruits but I have also been eating a lot of carbs, mostly complex ones so they are high fiber, whole wheat, low GI carbs but the are still carbs! I thought it would make me gain? Not that I'm complaining, I love it, it just makes me realize just how much my body is working without me even knowing what it's doing!? So I added two new tickers to this blog, one to keep track of my weight and one to keep track of how far along I am.

My only other complaint is about temperature.... I thought pregnant ladies were suppose to be hot all the time cause of all the hormonal stuff going on inside. But I am freezing all the time!! So flippin cold and it's not even winter yet! Even when my hubby touches me and says I feel warm to him I still feel cold!? The only time I feel hot is at one in the morning when I am woken up with night sweats! And then I have to flip the covers off for about an hour, then I'm cold again and cover up! gesh

High Hoe High Hoe off to the Lab I go!

Well I left home early today, parked at work and walked over to the lab for my blood work. It is pretty convenient with a medi-center/ lab right next to my office. When I got there it was pretty busy (I didn't think it would be that busy) so I stood in line and waited with everyone else. I finally got to the front of the line and told the lady why I was there, she checked her book and my doctors office had sent my paperwork over but unfortunately I never made an appointment (I didn't know you could?) so I sat and waited for my turn to be called. It went pretty quick and about 30 minutes later they called my name, I had one test tube thingy of blood taken and off I went back to work! Pretty uneventful so far! ;) I can't wait to call the doctors office on Thursday to find out what the levels are! I'm just hoping for anything over 1,000.

There was another lady at the lab that was obviously also pregnant and she had to drink this orange pop stuff, which I'm sure tasted nothing like orange pop. I remember one of my friends mom's also having to take this when she was pregnant and she said it wasn't very nice. And I guess you have to stay there for an hour and NOT pee!! Yeah right! I wonder if I will have to take this test and I wonder what it tests for cause I'm not entirely sure that I will be able to hold my pee for and hour!?! he he - I know it sounds funny, a hour isn't that long! But I've always been an active pee'er and do it often. I like to say I have TBS (tiny bladder syndrome) - I partially blame my Mom, I could never leave a place without making sure I didn't have to "go". I believe that this didn't train my body how to "hold it" like most people!? Now I never leave anywhere without making sure I use the facility first!

I can't believe how addicted to water I am, I can't get enough of the stuff - I feel so dehydrated all the time. I thought I drank lots of water before but now I think I drink even more, which doesn't help my peeing situation!? LOL I'm also not looking forward to the heightened sense of smell cause I already think that there are some pretty stinky things here at work! Like one of our drivers, I already old my breath when I go near him especially when he is eating his lunch! Makes me gag just thinking about it!! And public bathrooms - I'll try and hold my breath for the entire time I'm in them, since not using them isn't an option! he he Hopefully I don't have a super sensitive snout! ;)

A little scared

So far everything seems to be going great, I don't really feel that much different. I have however been feeling a little worried about things, which I'm sure is normal but still sucks to think such negative thoughts!

I think my biggest worry is of course m/c (miscarriage) I hate to even mention it. But I can't seem to get rid of these cramps or "pulling" feeling. I have read that it is entirely normal to feel cramps for the first trimester and some women even feel this for the entire pregnancy!! I'm just worried that it won't stick, maybe it's normal to feel this or maybe I am just a worry wart but I wish I could just find out what my levels were so I knew they were high and good! :)

UPDATE: I just got off the phone with the doctors office and they told me that if I wanted I could go get my HCG levels checked (via blood work) at my nearest medi-center/ lab!! Which just happens to be right beside our office!! YEAH!! It will be such a comfort to know what my levels are! After I get them done she said that they will only call me if something isn't right (which is normally what they do) but if I still want to know my level that I should phone in on Friday to find out. Well hell yeah - I want to know my levels why else would I request the test!? gesh! ;)

I also have been thinking about stuff that will affect us in the future - like finances, worries of raising the kid right, giving birth! Things that I'm sure will turn out just fine and even though we planned this pregnancy I still feel that maybe I'm not mentally/ financially prepared!?

I don't think I want to know what the sex is of our baby, my hubby was mentioning that he kinda did want to know!? I do want to know but I also was hoping to have that element of surprise that no one seems to want anymore!? I can see why it would be nice to know - you could prepare the room to be gender specific, you could buy outfits that weren't yellow and green, and you could have the name picked out. I'm sure we have lots of time to decide what we want, we will cross that bridge later! ;)

I must also say that I am already getting a little tired of my daily errors! I am spelling things wrong when I type this out, things that I never used to spell wrong and I am getting frustrated with the number of times I have to go back to correct it! Hopefully I won't loose my brain too bad! lol I've heard that you do a number of stupid things when you are pregnant that you would have never done before and I had quite a few "blond moments" before so I can't even imagine it getting worse! :)

Letting the cat out of the bag

We decided it was just too hard to keep our secret from our family, originally I thought we would wait a little longer then one day to tell them but we just couldn't wait. Friday after I got home from work my hubby was working on typing up a letter to give to his parents. You see his Dad is a real jokester that likes to play games, so we had to get him back! Originally we thought that something like the A&W commercial would have been perfect (give him a Grandpa burger instead of a Papa burger) but he would have expected that so we had to come up with something else. My hubby thought it would be fun to write up this letter to his parents and make it look like it came from a law firm. The letter stated how they were not allowed to leave the country between June and July of 2008 and it said something about an addition to the house and if they don't attend this unknown date they will revoke their rights as Grandparents! LOL His Mom got to the Grandparent part way quicker then Dad so he was a little confused when she started jumping up and down and yelling how they are going to be Grandparents! he he It was pretty funny! ;)

So this morning I woke up pretty early and headed out to St.Albert, my first stop was my brothers work. I asked him if he was ready to be an Uncle yet? and he said Yeah why? I just stared at him and after about 5 seconds he clued in and asked Are you ? Really ?? Then he was happy and said his congrats. Next stop was my Moms, we sat and talked for a bit and then she went to get me this bracelet she bought in Vegas and I told her I had something to show her too, so I passed her the digital pee stick with the word "pregnant" right on it and she got all excited. Then asked what end I pee'd on!? LOL Then she brought out some onezees that she had purchased from Vegas last year, they are super cute little M&M characters so when it's on the baby it will look like "Red" or "yellow peanut" and they come with matching hats, sooo cute! Next was my girlfriend Denise's, I had told her hubby the day before that my BBT temp had dropped so I didn't bother testing cause I expected different news (AF). I just didn't want him to know before her, so when I walked in she said "So I hear you're temp dropped?" and I said "yup - but it didn't matter." She caught on pretty quick and gave me hugs, she asked me if I wanted to borrow her book "What to Expect when Expecting" so I said sure cause I was thinking about buying it. She told me that it was a little "dry" but a good book with lots of info and after flipping through the first 100 pages or so I can definitely agree with her .... very dry! Nothing like "The Girlfriends Guide to Pregnancy" which was so funny and witty I barely put it down! :) I only had one stop left after Denise's, and that was my Dad's. He was pretty simple to tell, I just told him that I had to congratulate him and he asked why? So I said on becoming a Papa again!! He was shocked at first I think and asked Really? Just like my brother. So that is it for telling people, for a little while at least! I think we will wait a few weeks to tell the Grandparents and then a few weeks more after that to totally let the cat out of the bag!

Can not believe

So I just called the doctors office to make my very first visit as a pregnant lady and I was shocked to find out that you don't go in till you're at three months along!! That is the first time you need to go in! I can't believe it! They said if I wanted to go in and just "talk" to the doctor I could do that .... in two and a half more weeks!! Holy flip!! Not that I expected to go in now and get a ultrasound or have a pap but I thought I would at least get a blood test to confirm that I am pregnant and that all my numbers (HCG levels) are all good!?

Part of me wants to get a book, like the one I have in the pic, but then I remember hearing stories of ladies that read too much and then they start to freak out cause in the book it said this and their body is doing something different!? Sometimes too much information is not a good thing!? I just wish I could get a little reassurance that my numbers are good. I have been having some cramping that I read on the net was normal for some ladies but it just worries me!? Usually cramps mean AF is coming and it's not usually "good" news.

I broke down and called the doctors office back, I requested a blood test. The lady said she would see what she can do, I hope I can get one! ? It just seems so bazaar to me that everywhere I read that this is the critical time for miscarriages and abnormalities to happen, you would think that this would be the time the doctor should see you to lay your worries to rest and give you some pointers on the do's and don'ts!?

As for other symptoms so far .....


--- Extremely moody (but I can be sometimes), like right now there are these ladies outside with leaf blowers making a ton of noise .... WTF ever happened to the good old fashioned rake!? For friks sake ..... enough with the blower thingy already!!


--- I think I am already getting a mild case of "pregnancy brain", my spelling errors are atrocious .... thank goodness for spell check! If only you knew how many times I have to go back and correct my errors (it's not usually this bad).. the backspace button is going to be worn out soon!


--- Extremely thirsty but only for water, which I suppose is a good thing? I wish I knew more about what I should and shouldn't eat besides the obvious fruit and veggie crap! Like what about diet pop - I've heard bad things about aspartame and now that I'm with child, what was OK before isn't anymore? And what about coffee? There are just so many things that were OK before but now I don't know if I would eat/ drink the same things now that there is another life?!


--- I've always been an "active pee'r" but I think I am already using the biffy way more now then I ever have before but then that could be from my extreme thirst issue and all the water I've been ingesting!? LOL


--- I have felt queasy once and a while, usually in the afternoon around 1:30 - except for today I was OK?! I wonder what that's about? I feel like I want to buy more tests just so that everyday I can pee on a few (since I'm going pee more I may as well use them for something) and just make sure that I am still preggers!?



I hope I don't become too obsessive about this whole life changing experience!? Do you think I may be already!? A little obsessive?! ;)

Top secret ....

~ My story ~

Well after 2 1/2 years of not preventing and about six months of trying to conceive we finally did it!! I am 6 days late for AF and yesterday I decided to POAS (pee on a stick), it was a Clearblue test that is suppose to show a + in the big window if you are pregnant and they have a little test window that is suppose to have a little line in it to tell you that the test worked. Well on my test I got some funny looking upside down T (which is almost a +) but the little test circle didn't have it's line, which means the test is NFG (no fucking good)!!! Grrr -- so I go to work and do nothing but think about this test all day .... should I step out and pick up another test to try and see? But if it comes up as + I'm not gonna want to sit around at work all day, waiting to go home to tell my DH!?! And if it's a - .... well that's even worse! I absolutely hated the idea of seeing another BFN (big fat negative)!!!

I waited, till the end of the day and stopped on my way home for more tests. Then I waited some more till this morning when I took my BBT (basal body temp), which had dropped from the days prior - which had me a little worried and I started thinking that I may as well not even bother testing. But I did anyway, First Response Early Results, and I saw two lines!! That's a BFP (big fat positive) in my books!!

So now I decided that I should start a journal to keep track of all my funny symptoms - everything I think you need to know!? Things that no one told me about! On that note I would like to recommend a book I have already read and thought was great !! "The Girlfriends Guide to Pregnancy" it told me lots of stuff that not even my bestest girlfriend told me! But I think there is more, more that the book didn't share, more dark and dirty secrets of pregnancy that nobody likes to talk about! ? Maybe I'm wrong but you will find out - in due time! ;) lol