1st overnight stay in ER ! :(

Well .... our weekend started off crappy, had an OK middle and not a great ending!? Thursday night around supper time Jacob didn't want to eat, he was crying and would hold his breath almost as if he was in pain!? It was so bazaar, he would cry and hold his breath then cry some more, his body would tighten as if he had gas and his belly did feel a little hard so I thought that was the problem. Then he ended up falling asleep super early, which I thought was OK - he must be tired!? But just over an hour after falling asleep he woke up crying the same cry as before and wouldn't settle down, I tried just about everything I could think of and nothing was working so I called my hubby in from the garage. He came in and washed up then took Jacob, I told hubby that something must be wrong and that I think I will go to the hospital to get him checked. Then hubby says to me .... "his lips are blue!" I hadn't even looked, I was sitting in the dark trying to calm him and never thought to look at his coloring!? So now panic set in and I start hustling to get to the hospital. We got there pretty quick cause it is close, and got in right away (probably cause I pushed my way through). They checked his oxygen and said it was a little low, they didn't really know what was wrong and were asking a million questions. Finally they decided to give him some oxygen, which seemed to help and chest x-rays in case he had swallowed something he shouldn't have (like a toy). The x-rays came back good but just so you know .... if you ever have to get your little one x-ray'd the contraption they put them in is horrible!! It looked like a mid-evil torture device - Jacob was freaked out!

By now it was midnight and the doctors still weren't sure why Jacobs oxygen levels kept dropping and why every time you moved him he would cry in pain. They recommended staying over night for observation. Which I was happy about, until I tried to get some sleep on the tiny cot! Jacob finally fell asleep at 2am, then I was awake at 3am sore and uncomfortable, Jacob woke at 4am, then again at 5am, I was so exhausted. We stayed till 8:30am when the pediatrician finally came to see us. He was pretty nice (an old guy), he squeezed Jacobs tummy and checked him out, said he seemed fine and to take him home!? It was so weird, it was like his weird breathing had stopped and he was good!? The only thing the pediatrician said was that we need to stop giving him bottles and to leave them at the hospital, go home and throw away any we have there! YIKES!! One thing at a time please!! Can we first get him to sleep through the night!?

So Saturday, Jacob and I had our first Teddy Bear Gang lesson, it is held at the zoo and introduces animals to the kids. It was so much fun and I think Jacob really enjoyed it too!! He went nuts when she brought a chicken out and Jacob got to touch it! He also got to touch a rat and some feathers. Next week is reptiles!! ewwwww

Sunday was swimming lessons, Jacob was super cranky when we left home but good in the pool. Then I decided to get him his H1N1 shot, there was no line up and we were practically in and out. Then we did some shopping at Costco and visiting the Great Grandparents before they head south. When we got home Jacob was acting strange again, he was very tired and all he wanted to do was sit on my lap. He sat there for almost 3 hours and if I tried moving him he would cry. I'm hoping that it was from the shot and he was just stiff and sore. I guess we will find out tonight.

I posted some pics of Jacob in his hospital bed but they aren't very clear. I took them with my phone. His 1st overnight stay at the hospital!! :(

FINALLY !!! A full nights sleep!!! :)

Above are a few pics from the Moms group Halloween party, it was so hard to get pictures of all the kiddies - they don't sit still very long and it seems like when they are still it's cause they are eating and have messy faces!! :) The party was good, and if it wasn't for one of the Moms stepping up and volunteering her house I don't think the party would have happened!? Some Moms are very concerned about H1N1 and didn't even want to come out if anyone even had a sniffle!? I'm not saying that H1N1 isn't something to laugh about but I don't want to live in a bubble and I don't think Jacob should either! So the next get together will probably be for Christmas and I am already excited!! :)

So .... not sure if you read the title of this but FINALLY last night we had a FULL night sleep!! From 9pm till 6:30am!!! It was amazing, he woke at about 3am and I heard him whining a bit but he just fell back asleep !! I hate to say it but I think hubby might have been right about the bed!!!??! Yesterday we put a fluffy comforter on his bed and covered it up with another fuzzy sheet so the bed was a little softer then before. Maybe that is why? I guess we will find out tonight!?!? If he sleeps through the night again tonight then I guess Jacob just likes a softer bed? I also finally found the "Huggies bedtime" diapers and decided to buy a pack (they were on sale and I had a $3.00 off coupon) they are suppose to be more absorbent. I must say .... they SUCK!!! :( Jacob woke up this morning with wet pj's because his diaper couldn't absorb anymore! Which is kinda funny cause he didn't even wake up during the night for a bottle and before I was using "Pampers Baby Dry" and never changed him in the middle of the night and they didn't make his pj's wet! I think we are sticking to Pampers Baby Dry - they seem to absorb way better!!

Finally, below is a pick of all the kiddies at the Halloween party, all of Jacobs friends! It was soooo hard to get a good pic! Jacob is squishing Kayden (red parrot) and the rest of the kids are crying, Izzy (in all white) is suppose to have a red hat that looks like a mushroom top. It was crazy! Next time we will have to figure out how to get a good pic!?

Happy Halloween!

Our weekend was good, very busy but aren't they always!? I have pics I posted too!! How exciting!!! :D

So Saturday I let hubby sleep in and I got up with Jacob at 6:30am, then he had a good nap from 9:30am - 12:30pm, I wanted to go to the mall and get some pics done of Jacob in his costume (posted below) but we had a Halloween party with the Moms group at 2pm so I felt a little rushed. Thankfully there was no line to get pics done and we were in and out, then headed to the party. It was nice to see all the moms and kiddies again, I haven't seen some of them since the birthday party. We left there around 4pm and had to rush to go see the Great Grandparents and in laws, Jacob got his little pumpkin bucket filled up with candy and then off we headed home to have supper and do a little trick or treating around our house. Jacob seemed to really like trick or treating and one of his little friends (who's 2 1/2) was really into it! It was fun, we walked the block and headed home.

Sunday was my day to sleep in and it was daylight savings day so technically I got an extra hour to sleep then hubby!! :) We have swim class on Sundays and after swimming I headed to St.Albert to take my Dad shopping. I dropped Jacob off at my Moms to babysit so that it wouldn't be so hard for me to go shopping (which was great!). Dad was shopping for a new recliner for upstairs and we finally found one after looking in 5 stores!! Dad just stayed in the car and I would go in too see if there was anything I thought he would like, then tell him what I saw. It was tiring, in and out of the car so many times but at least he finally found one he liked and it was only $350! I also had a very quick visit with a girlfriend in St.Albert while I was out there and stayed for a quick visit at my Moms. It was a good weekend!

The time change was a little hard on Sunday night for Jacob, he passed out at 7:30pm and of course woke in the middle of the night but not only once but twice!?! I'm so frustrated with him waking, he shouldn't be at this point in his life.... he should be sleeping through the night!? Hubby and I got in a huge argument last night because I say that we need to let Jacob CIO (cry it out) and hubby refuses to let him cry that long. Hubby is OK if he is kinda whinny and moaning but if Jacob is actually wailing then he will give in and gets mad that I wont go to him. And don't get me wrong ... it breaks my heart to sit there and listen to him wail and cry but EVERYONE says that this is something that NEEDS to be done! Jacob needs to learn how to fall back asleep on his own after waking in the middle of the night!? It very frustrating that hubby isn't on the same page as me. He won't even water down his bottle!? Says all that will do is make him bloated!? I wish hubby would leave for a week or two, just go live somewhere else and then maybe I could get it done? When I ask hubby for other ideas on how to get him to sleep he suggests that maybe Jacobs bed is too hard cause apparently Jacob slept through the night at Grandmas one night and hubby thinks that maybe it was because they have a fluffy mattress in the playpen!? I'm tired of arguing about it and have now refused to get out of bed when Jacob cries, which I think only irritates hubby but I feel like if this is what hubby wants to do then HE can get up and do it! Personally I'm done with getting up in the middle of the night!!

So below you will notice that on the left are Halloween pics from last year and on the right are pics from this year ... Jacob is in the same outfit and same shirt he wore last year!! :o I had so many of the Moms comment that he has slimmed out a lot! I'm sure you can also see a difference!! :) I will post pics tomorrow of the Moms Halloween party.

been too long....

It's been a while since I last updated and not that a bunch of stuff has happened I have been keeping busy!!

We had our race banquet last weekend, it was nice to get out (just the two of us) and hubby even won a trophy!! He won the "drag staff appreciation award", it was the second time he won this trophy and I do believe it was well earned but both of us kinda thought he was going to win a different trophy (one for the most dedicated employee - I forget what it was called but it goes to the employee that always gives 110%).

Jacob has been sleeping better, still waking at least once during the night (except when he had the sleep over at the in laws -- I'm soooo jealous!!). It makes me wonder what I'm doing wrong? Why will he sleep through the night for the in laws but wakes for us every night? I have tried cutting his naps down and I have tried letting him nap longer (thinking that maybe he was over tired?) Hubby and I butt heads over giving him a bottle at 2am, I say we need to maybe let him cry it out OR water down the milk until eventually it is just water. He for whatever reason doesn't like either of those ideas. He thinks that by watering down the milk it will make Jacob bloated!? and he doesn't think that the cries Jacob has are cries that he will fall back asleep from (not that we have ever tried). I'm at my wits end, I get embarrassed when people say "o-well at least he is at the age where you are getting more sleep" or ask how his sleeping is, we got more sleep when he was 6 months old then we do now and I know we HAVE to STOP giving him milk to fall asleep! It's hard when you aren't on the same page!! Maybe hubbies eyes will open soon, he has improved a bit and will now let Jacob cry it out at bedtime but just not at 2am!?

I'm also confused about the H1N1 vaccine!? I'm stuck between getting it or not!? I've heard scary stories from both sides. Hubby doesn't think it is necessary, and I kinda believe that the flu virus changes all the time so even if you do get the H1N1 vaccine you can still get H1N5 virus (which is apparently way worse!). I have never gotten the flu vaccine before and I have never caught the flu so do I take my chances with something that sounds so big!?

I'm taking my Dad shopping next week, he needs some warm clothes and groceries, plus he wanted to buy some Christmas gifts for the kids. He also wants to go shopping for a new recliner. I think it will be too much for one day, for a guy that barely gets out to do all that shopping - I think it will definitely tucker him out! It's good though that he is excited to go shopping and is willing to buy new things for himself, he was always the type that believed if it's not broke don't fix it (or buy new). But he is also talking to me about his funeral arrangements which is kinda weird to me, our family barely talked about small issues never mind talking about death and what our plans are!

Jacob and I went to a Discovery Toy party last night, it was fun, we have been to them before and Jacob enjoys their toys. Tonight I am going out for coffee with the girls (I'm soooo excited!) I'm thinking it might be a late night though!! Then tomorrow I am having a Creative Memories party that I was kinda roped into having but if it gets me free stuff then it's all good! Saturday is Halloween and the Mom group is trying to organize a party, I also want to take Jacob to a few houses 'trick or treating' then we have to be home in time to help hand out candy at our house!

On the weight loss front ... I'm sure you've probably noticed my tickers haven't budged for a while!? It's hard when life is so hectic and I want to spend my evenings/ weekends with Jacob. He just isn't really into sitting in a stroller for a half hour or more so I can go for a walk and pretty soon it is going to be so cold out that I don't think I will want to take him out for a walk! I think I need to get a small TV and set it up in the basement beside my treadmill. It's just frustrating, it seems like I know all the things that I'm "suppose" to do with weight loss and weaning Jacob off the bottle but they are so hard to do.

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOM!! LOVE YOU ((HUGS))

Things feel like they are getting better, Jacob is going back to his "normal" self and is sleeping through the night - there fore giving us some needed sleep. There is a saying that says ... "Happy Mommy = Happy baby (family)" I think it's the other way around ... Happy baby = happy Mommy = happy family! Cause when Jacob is cranky EVERYONE is cranky and now that he is happy everything seems better! :) I forgot to post for his 16 month update so here are some new things:

--- Jacob likes to talk now and there are definitely some real words coming out. We can ask him a question and he will usually answer with a "yes" or "no" (mostly yes, surprisingly). For example I'll say "do you want to go outside?" he'll say "yes"
--- Jacob says about 15-20 words like, Momma, Dadda, dog, baba, yes, no, downstairs, outside, juice, there are others but I don't remember.
--- He HAS to have bubbles in his bath now and will grab the bottle for you, try to squirt the liquid in the tub and put the bottle back.
--- He is trying to jump and will stand there lifting his heels off the ground but his toes never leave the ground.
--- He is wearing the same clothes he wore last Christmas!! They are size 12month onesies but his pj's are size 24 month!

Not much is new, I haven't talked to Dad for a while and feel kinda guilty about that but I plan on going to see him on Saturday. We also have a banquet for the race track on Sat night so Jacob will be having a sleepover at the in laws! :) Halloween is next weekend and I think Jacob will just wear the same costume as last year. The Mom's group wants to have a party for the kids in the afternoon so Jacob and I will go for a little while then after supper I think I will take Jacob to a couple neighbors. Usually my hubby does the garage up like a haunted house and the kids have fun going through it, he has fun scaring them but last year the garage was full of cars so he did it on the lawn. It wasn't as much fun, I'm not sure what he has planned this year, hopefully he does the garage again, it was so much fun!

Oh-Yeah and on the diet front .... it is a challenge, things are much harder this time with having Jacob. I am finding it hard to get my exercise in, usually Hubby works in the garage in the evening so I have Jacob and if it is cold out I'm not sure I want to take him out for a long walk!? Plus I'm not sure he will sit in the stroller for longer then a half hour!? I need to find a routine that works for us, maybe I will have to go after Jacob is in bed at 9pm?! Or get up early and go before he's awake!? Either way I'm not really excited about going at those times ... I'm usually pretty sleepy around those times!? But if I want to loose the weight I have to do my part! One of my friends was trying to sell me on this multi-vitamin called the Double X, she gave me a speal on it and it actually sounds really good and she made it make sense BUT it was pretty expensive and I wasn't' sure if it was worth it to make it work into the budget (even though there is a money back guarantee if you don't think it made a difference). So she was nice enough to give me a FREE 10 day sample, I tried it yesterday for the first time, you take 3 vitamins twice a day with a meal and it is suppose to make you feel a little more energized and not as sluggish. Well - I'm not sure if it was because Jacob finally had a decent sleep but I did feel different, more energized and not as sleepy. I felt more motivated and didn't feel like I needed an afternoon nap. The only thing I noticed that was weird was my pee was a different color!? And I think it made me drink more water but that is a positive! I will finish the 10 days and see how I feel, if it does seem to make a big difference then I can make it work in the budget.

Need more sleep!! :(

This picture is a little old now but I wasn't sure if I shared my bean bag story!? Sooo ... I thought it would be fun for Jacob to have a bean bag chair, little did I know that you had to put the beans in the bag yourself and when the directions recommended filling the bag in your tub I kinda ignored them and decided to fill it in the living room!! I learned the hard way on why they recommend doing it in the tub!! It was a complete mess but Jacob had fun and all I could do was laugh!!

Everyday I find that my love grows for him and although some days are terribly frustrating lately I have been seeing all the positives. He is such a little smarty pants but maybe I'm just by ass? He seems to learn things that I don't feel like we taught him but he watches and learns then shows us what he knows. He now has to have bubbles in his bath every night and wants to be the one to put them in, and will put the bottle back after we are finished. He is becoming such a little boy, it just amazes me at how far he has come and yet has so much more to learn!

We spent the night last night in the ER, Jacob has been sick for a few days and his cough sounded really bad so we took him in. It is frustrating that they make kids and babies wait so long in emergency, you would think they would try to get them out fast. There was one little girl there that had a broken collar bone and had been there for 3 hours, waiting to see a doctor!! We were there for 2 hours and Jacob was getting quite restless by the end of that! Turns out to be just a viral infection but there was no harm in getting him checked out, he should start feeling better soon~?

Sleep has not been on my list of things to do lately, with Jacob being sick the nights are even longer then before BUT on a plus note he went the entire night without having milk, we just gave him water and he seemed to be OK with that!? We tried to do it again last night but he wanted his milk, we will keep trying to swap out that night bottle of milk with water and hopefully he just wont wake anymore!? Plus with him being sick he has a hard time sleeping on his back so we tried putting a pillow in his crib to elevate his head but we end up sleeping with him on the couch for a bit or bringing him into our bed.

I feel like everyone around me is sick lately, everything from a simple cold to terminal cancer! It's mentally exhausting and you mix that in with being physically exhausted and you end up with an emotional basket case! Ready to snap at the smallest thing! I almost snapped on my hubby when I found out he cancelled my pvr recording for Biggest Loser and we watched Hell's Kitchen instead!! But then I realized it's just a TV show and that maybe I could watch the episode on the net? The new guy at work is so funny and makes me laugh almost everyday, like a hard belly laugh and I have to catch my breath. The only problem with this is that since I am on the verge of snapping I tend to cry when I laugh hard and it feels good but it's like a window opening that could be a disaster at work. It's just hard right now to be strong and stay strong, I feel like my brother isn't doing his part and I'm sure he feels like he is doing everything!? I want to do more for my Dad but it's hard when you have young children and live so far away!? I might just have to take a week to help Dad out, he has been talking about selling his house but personally I think it should get a little TLC before listing. He just wants to list it "as is" and will probably loose out on thousands of dollars just cause he doesn't want to spend a few hundred.

Anyway .... here is a pick of the finished bean bag and Jacob enjoying a snack on it.