No lunch! ? WTF? ?

Well, it is my third week back to work and technically yesterday was hubby's second full day with Jacob and I can honestly say that I'm NOT impressed by Daddy's parenting skills! When I got home yesterday, Jacob came running over with a huge smile on his face (which I love) but all he had on was a onesie, not a huge deal because it is summer but it was a little chilly out yesterday and his legs felt cold. But I know that wasn't the reason why he had no pants on, it's because it is easier to change a diaper when you don't have to worry about putting pants back on and Dad is kinda lazy that way. The thing that ticked me off the most was when I asked what Jacob had for lunch and Hubby said "yogurt", and I stared at him waiting to see what else .... but no there was nothing else, just yogurt!! :o And when I looked at him funny and said you have to feed Jacob more, hubby just responded with "he wasn't hungry" which I know the only reason why he wouldn't eat more is because he had too much milk! So I said that, you are giving him too many bottles and not enough food - now he is going to wake up in the middle of the night!! And guess what happened .... Jacob was up at 12:30am starving! Apparently I need to make Jacob a lunch when I make my lunch and label it! It's not like we don't have food in the fridge and there are bananas on the counter !?

I also apparently have to be more specific when I ask hubby to help with chores. I asked him to trim the hedge and tree by our front door cause it's hard to walk on the sidewalk with all the overgrowth. So I came home and yes, he did trim the hedge and tree but only by the front door ? What about the rest of the hedge? It looks like crap! I don't understand why he didn't trim the entire hedge since he had the trimmer out it wouldn't have been that much harder!? I also asked him to vacuum which he did but not the rug in Jacobs room or by the back door so now I have to haul out the vacuum to do the floor he missed?! grrrr

I slept like crap last night, even though I tried to go to bed early (9:30pm) I couldn't fall asleep till 10:30pm and then hubby got home at 11:30, then Jacob was up at 12:30 and it took me till 1:30am to fall back asleep just to get woken up again at 2:30am by some kids outside setting off crackers (sounded like gun fire!). I'm beat, and even though I have tomorrow off I won't be able to sleep in or have a break cause hubby won't be home to help so I will have to go visiting or shopping to pass the time!? I'm sure it will be a very long day!

Week 3

Well, things are going good at work, I am still enjoying my "me" time but I'm a little resentful of hubby. This is now week 3 of me back at work and he has only watched Jacob for 1 1/2 days!! And yes, he has been busy with stuff but it's all race stuff that he shouldn't really be doing cause it's not really his job and he doesn't get paid that good for it. The jobs in the garage are not getting done and most days when I get home the dishes are stacked high, toys are scattered everywhere and I have a pile of laundry to do! I told him I need more help from him so Mondays he is suppose to vacuum and I asked him to do a few other things today. There is a BIG race this weekend at the track and I already know that he will be MIA all week. I feel like he doesn't really want us around him at the track, I am always the one that has to suggest ways for us to be together as a family (like borrowing his parents trailer so that I can camp out there this weekend and be with him in the evening) or I have to figure out how to get a sitter so I can join him on weekend activities (which I still haven't figured out so I sit at home while he goes out with friends). I feel bad for my MIL who often gets stuck with Jacob and even though I know she enjoys it (most times) she shouldn't have to watch him that much, I think he needs to step up a bit more and look after Jacob. But on the plus side at least I know when Jacob is over at Grandmas she is making sure he is fed good and she takes him outside to play. Hubby is still unsure on what to feed Jacob and on days like today when it's not so nice out he will just stay in the house where I would go to a indoor play park or even the mall just to get out and have some contact with other people~?!

Jacob's new thing now is screaming! And I don't like it!! I try and whisper too him, which usually makes him laugh so he stops yelling but if he wants something or doesn't want something he is very persistent and will yell till he gets it! He also likes to point to things now and I tell him what they are, he really likes lights and things up high.

Well, I was able to get mostly everything I wanted done this weekend and I even got to sleep in Saturday morning thanks to my in laws!! I returned the outfits Jacob got for his birthday that were either too small or the size he is in now but since I had no receipt or even gift receipt I only got the last sale price on all items (which was about 30% less then reg price), I ended up getting Jacob a small couch (the one that folds out to a bed) I was surprised to see that they are $50 so that was pretty much my entire gift card spent on one item! I also bought him his potty seat and I'm trying to find him a sippy cup that he will use for milk! I think it's time to wean him off the bottle (at least for day time feedings) but he doesn't seem to like any sippy cup I have tried! ? My cupboards are stocked with almost every kind, I think he might just skip the whole sippy cup stage and just go straight to a cup with no lid (he's actually pretty good at it and doesn't make too much of a mess if you help him drink).

Other then that not much else is new, I get Wednesday off for Canada Day but I will be really busy trying too get everything ready for our "camping" weekend at the track. Hubby won't be home all week so I think I will be more tired this week, I will feel like a single Mom! Good thing his parents are so nice and invited me to stay for supper all week!! That's one less thing I have to do by myself!! :D

another rough night ....

I haven't been getting the kind of sleep I like to be getting lately, Jacob goes through cycles it seems .... he will do two weeks of sleeping really good not waking through the night and then he does two weeks of horrible sleeping, waking at least once maybe twice a night. This week has been a bad sleep week! My evening was like this - in a nut shell:

-Got off work @ 4:30pm, headed to pick up Jacob from inlaws

-Stayed for super at inlaws so I didn't have to worry about making anything which was nice,

-Needed groceries and wanted to buy a new sprinkler cause I don't like the one we have, left inlaws at 5:30ish

-Zellars was sold out of sprinklers (WTH?), went home to figure out the one we have

-Played with Jacob in the yard for a bit, took him for a ride in his Cozy Coupe, by now it was 7:30pm

-Bath time for Jacob and pj's

-8:30pm Jacob's goes to bed, I catch up on shows I recorded and tidy the house a bit.

-I go to bed at 10:30pm ..... now the rough part starts ...

-hubby gets home at 11:30, I wake up .....

-dog is pacing the floor at 12:30am, I wake up and let her out ....

-Jacob wakes up at 1:30am, I get up change him give him a bottle (I know, I shouldn't but it works)

-finally I get a few hours of sleep and then Jacob wakes again at 4:30am!! This time we kind of ignore him and he falls back asleep till 6am,

-I bring Jacob in bed with us, he hits me in the head with his toy, I get out of bed and decided to get ready for work!

I'm tired! And I have to work at the track tonight so I won't get home till at least midnight! Thankfully Jacob is having his usual Friday night sleep over at the inlaws and I don't have to pick him up until noon on Sat! But as I mentioned in yesterday's post I have LOTS to do this weekend so I probably can't sleep in too long, maybe just till 8:30?! :)

It's official our home computer has a virus that is impossible to fix so we need to get a new computer. I'm really not too upset at the fact that we need a new computer cause the old one was slow and irritated me. However, I'm extremely worried that I will not be able to get the pics of Jacobs first year and movies off the computer!! I guess this is why everyone tells you to make hard copies!? grrrrr !

affair ....

Dear Sweets,

You have been there when I needed you the most, through the emotional, stressful and lonely times. You have cheered me up by just being there and letting me hold you. But it needs to end! I want to be with coffee more, he doesn't hurt me the ways you do by adding pounds of frustration and self hatred. I need to spend more time with things that will help me reach my goals and even though you were a good listener I need someone that will help me reach my goals. The affair was great while it lasted but I need to get back to what I once was .... a size 10!!!

Yup, I weighed in today, just for sh*ts and giggles and there was neither of those happening! I'm so mad at myself and I'm starting to get discouraged! I've gained almost all the weight I lost and I blame chocolate, I can feel the extra weight when I walk, the way my clothes fit, it just seriously pisses me off!! Why can't it be easier! ? My hubby knows there is something bugging me and asks but I don't tell him I'm mad at myself for eating crap and getting fat! I'm sure he's sick of hearing me say it and he never really offers any advice anyway. He just gives me a look like "well, if you don't like it then do something about it" which just makes me feel guilty and bad cause I just can't seem to figure out how!

Time management is harder then I thought now that I am back at work and have Jacob in the evenings. I NEED to start going for evening walks but now that Jacob is older I'm not sure if he will even sit for that long in the stroller? He will want to walk too but if I go his pace I won't even get my heart rate up. I'm all out of fruits and veggies and normally I would just take Jacob to the store and pick some up but when I don't get home till 5ish, make dinner and then depending on Jacob either give him a bath and he's ready for bed or I could manage to either go for a walk or go shopping after supper but not both (as long as he had a nap that day). I'm sure it will get easier and one of the guys at work here suggested that maybe I go for morning walks instead which actually isn't a bad idea. I could go by myself, sort out my thoughts, not worry about baby, come home and have a shower. Then the evenings would still be "our" time to have fun with Jacob. I also NEED to get rid of the chocolate almond boxes that are for sale in front of me, tempting me all day!! Next week I will stay a little late after work and move my computer to the other side of the counter and put the chocolates at the other end!

So besides being slightly depressed about my weight which I'm sure everyone is sick of hearing about! I'm doing OK, I really enjoy having the break from Jacob during the day and can't wait till he is old enough to tell me what he has done all day without me. I love seeing his face light up when he sees me and the way he gives me a snuggle after a long day at work. This weekend I have so much to do, I have to do everything that I normally would do during the week (like clean the bathrooms, floors and vacuum), I also need to go to the photo place to order our pics I want and thank you cards, I should also go to the grocery store and pick up fruits and veggies (cause I don't think I'll have time tonight or tomorrow), I need to return/ exchange some gifts Jacob got (mostly clothes but they are at 4 different stores) and I really should go visiting family. I wish I could work part time but my job doesn't really offer that, then I could get the stuff done that hubby can't seem to figure out!? Like going to the grocery store for fruit or doing laundry!

PARTY!

The party was great, we had lots of family and friends show up - about 40 adults and 10 kids! It was kinda a ruff day for Jacob, he decided it would be a good no nap day so I felt rushed to get through everything before he had a meltdown! Thankfully he never really did have a meltdown but just didn't want to sit still and seemed a little cranky. He got so spoiled (as expected), he got lots of clothes, toys and money! Most of the clothes I will have to return cause they are 18 month size and that is what he is in right now and some of the toys were duplicates so I think I will be busy this week end exchanging everything. He really got into his cake this time and was very messy - it was fun to watch him get right into it!

Now that his party is over I get to know what a "normal" week is like and so far I kinda like it! So far most days I leave before he is even up and then when I get home I make dinner, give him a bath, play for a bit and put him to bed. I love the way he runs to me when I get home and gives me big hugs! I do miss not being able to go for coffee with the other Moms and socializing Jacob around other kids (which I think has helped in his development).

Yesterday Jacob had his 1yr shots, one in each arm and one in the leg! He did good, the nurse asked a million questions but I guess that is her job. Hubby had to deal with him after cause I went to work but he said Jacob didn't seem out of the ordinary at all. Of course he got weighed and measured and hasn't gained a pound since last month but grew in length (I'm not worried, he's still a big boy and on track with his graph). So Jacob weighed in at 24lbs and was 30.5" - not too much is new this month, he is trying to say more words and his walking is much better. He squats to sit now instead of just falling on his butt. He can feed himself with a spoon and enjoys "scooping" his food. He usually listens to commands like "come here" and "can I have...", His temper is starting to show more and his personality is coming out, he seems to know what he wants and shakes his head "no" when he doesn't want it. Still only has 6 teeth but I'm sure his molars are on their way.

Pro pics are in!! Now to decide!!

The pics are in!! And I think they turned out great, the magic of digital photography - they were able to hide all the bumps and bruises on his head! Now to just decide which one(s) I want!! These are a few of my favorites but I think I'm leaning more towards the pics where he is sitting on the chair? The studio said they could change things on the pics too if I wanted, for example: I like the umbrella one but I'm not too crazy about his dazed look so I could take his head from the chair photo and crop it onto the umbrella pic!? Isn't technology amazing!! So here are some pics, maybe you could help me out and put your vote on which one you like!?

I think this is my fav.

Well, the big birthday bash is tomorrow and I think I'm sorta ready!? I made loot bags for all the kids that RSVP'd (10)!! I'm not sure if it's normal for there to be loot bags at a one year olds birthday but just to be safe I did, cause what parent doesn't need more dollar store crap lying around the house!? he he

Saturday is going to be really busy and I'm grateful that my in laws are keeping Jacob over night tonight and aren't bringing him home till they come over for the party at 3pm! This way I don't have to try and clean house, make chili, decorate the house, pick up the cake AND entertain a one year old!!

I guess that's all for now, I will post later with birthday pics and how the party went!

Finally some PICS!!! :)

Yup that's right ... it's picture time!! Don't ask me how I did it cause it's a long story of uploading/ downloading/ file sharing hoopla~!! But I somehow managed to get some pictures on here!

My little walking man!! He's still a little clumsy resulting in bumps and bruises on his forehead but I guess that's part of the learning curve! He now tries to put his hands down to stop himself but sometimes he is just clumsy! ;)


We have to put the dog dishes up or outside, Jacob seems to really enjoy playing with them! I thought this was cute!

His 1st haircut and he didn't do too bad, he wasn't scared until she brought out the little razor to do around his ears.

It's like he's saying ... "please help me Mommy!" He's so sad! :(

We celebrated his Birthday yesterday with supper and a mini party, just us and the in laws. They bought him a new sandbox, which he seems to really enjoy (even after seeing how it taste!), we gave him a small gift as well (mega block fire hall) and we had a small cake!

He didn't do too bad with the cake and was about to dive into it until Dad gave him a spoon! So he wouldn't get too messy!! Dad can be such a tart sometimes, it's not like he had to clean up after!? O - well, his big party is this weekend so I'm sure he will have another chance to get into his cake! Tonight is Jacobs professional pictures (which I'll have to try and hide a few bruises for) and I need to pick up things to make the grab bags! I think there is suppose to be about 10 kids coming!! :o

One day done .... lots more to go!

Well, my first day wasn't too bad I suppose!? I sure didn't miss rush hour traffic and since my store has changed locations since last year I "tried" going home a new way and should have stuck to the old way cause I ended up on the wrong highway and had to go into the city and really deal with rush hour traffic!! I find it hard to get everything done and feel very rushed at the end of my work day! Maybe it's just cause I have lots to do before Jacobs party on Saturday but I think I need to work on my time management!! Now I have to do all the things I used to take all day to do (laundry, grocery shopping, house work, etc.) in only 6 hours! Four little hours .... that's all I get now with Jacob! By the time I get home from work (about 5ish) and by the time he goes to bed, so I must make the best of weekends!!

Yesterday was pretty hard for both of us and by the time I saw him after work he was stuck to me like glue and wouldn't let me out of his site!! It makes me feel loved and sad that I can't be with him. Today was better then yesterday and he didn't even cry when I left, he reached out as if to say please don't go but there were no tears, so that is good! Hubby worked on the computer yesterday and said he was able to get the picture file, I'm so happy I never lost them! But that's all he's been able to get into! This virus is a nasty one!! Today he is suppose to work on the basement and it better be close to being done by the time I get home!! There really isn't that much left to do, maybe two days worth of hard work!

I forgot how slow it is at my job, which is kinda nice cause I feel like I'm on a holiday but the more down time I have the more I think about Jacob! As I said before this week is busy, yesterday after supper we had a toy party to go to and before we left Jacob fell and bumped his head (now there is a big goose egg!), I have pictures booked for tomorrow but now I'm wondering if I should cancel cause the goose egg is pretty big but then I think there will always be something so maybe I should just keep the appointment!? Thursday I need to go buy stuff for the party on Saturday and start preparing food cause I will have no time on Friday. Friday I am headed straight from work to the the track the Saturday is the party and I will have to set up decorations and finish making salads and grab bags! Makes me tired just thinking about it all!! :P Tonight I should call family that hasn't RSVP'd yet, but the list is really long and we are going out for dinner and having a mini party for Jacobs birthday. Today he is 1, and I forgot to wish him a Happy Birthday before I left this morning!! I feel like such a horrible Mom!! :( I'm not sure if I will have time to call all the family that hasn't replied so I guess I'm just suppose to assume they aren't coming? My brother is on that list and that pisses me off!! He's so lazy, it doesn't surprise me but I will be mad if he doesn't come to his only nephews 1st birthday!!

Anyway, I guess I should get back to "work" (it's so much easier then being at home but boring, I don't consider it work to be here). I want to move my computer from the center of the counter to the corner so that people can't tell that I'm slacking !! LOL

Back to "work"! :(

Well, good news bad news I suppose~? I'm back at work which I thought I would be super excited for but I find myself more emotional about it then I thought I would be! The weekend was good but bad, good cause I was able to go out with friends, work at the track and have a little fun before heading back to work but bad because it was my last weekend before going back to work and I felt guilty for spending it away from Jacob! I was emotional and it didn't take much to get me upset on the weekend, I think I took it out on my hubby but we got through it. I'm glad I worked at the track it was fun but it also reminded me that there is LOTS of drama and politics behind the scene that not too many people see and I don't think I'm interested in seeing it again!

So needless to say I over indulged on the weekend, everyone just kept giving me treats - like mini donuts, cinnamon buns, kettle popcorn, cake, etc. Well, when I got on the scale this morning it was horrible!! But now I am back on track, following a plan and since I'm at work I can't keep checking out the snack cupboard so hopefully I can get into a routine and get back into my skinny pants!!!

Our computer at home still has a virus, so I can't empty the pics on my camera and therefore have no pics to post! :( But hopefully hubby will fix the computer today along with all the other things he has to do and I can post pics! I'm so worried that I might loose all the pics I already put on the computer, I wish I would have made a hard copy!! I have pics of Jacob at the water park and his 1st haircut that I want to post!!

Yes, he had his 1st haircut on Thursday and yes, he freaked out a bit! Not as bad as I thought and I think he just got tired of sitting there. I have video and pics I will post. He looks like such a little man now, especially when he plays with his toys.

O-so back to the good news part .... now that I'm back at work (Boooo!) I will be able to post more updates on here! So keep checking back to see what is new! It's only 11am now and already I'm wishing I was on my way to pick up Jacob! His actual birthday is tomorrow, we will probably go for supper and I will pick up a small cake because his party is on Saturday and we will have a big cake for then! Then on Wed, I booked Jacob for some professional pics - hubby said it wasn't necessary but I want 1st year pics!

Well, back to work..... I will probably post more tomorrow! :)

A quicky

Well, things have been going fairly good, I've been trying to go for a walk everyday and think I've only missed a day or two!? Our computer has gotten a virus and isn't working so I am using the laptop now but there are no pics of Jacob on here and I don't want to put the new pics from my camera on the laptop so hopefully hubby will fix it soon and I can post some new pics! I also am working on a digital scrapbook and have a code for a free book but it expires soon so I need to get on the main computer to finish that or I'll loose my coupon!

I'm debating to get professional pictures of Jacob for his 1yr birthday? Hubby doesn't think it's necessary but I think it is a milestone that should be acknowledged ? I think I'll get them done regardless!? He's just no fun lately, we had the birthday party with the Moms group for all of the babies (Jacob's friends) and hubby didn't even want Jacob to eat watermelon cause it was too messy?! I think he is just stressed lately, he has a lot on his plate - basement still needs to be finished (I gave him till Jacobs party on the 20th), he has lots of cars to finish (customers are waiting), fix the bathroom, the list seems to go on forever!

So the birthday party was fun, Jacob got a bath toy - a boat with some toys to go with it, its cute and he seems to like it. I am currently trying to buy and plan for his family party, today I will be sending out invites and I bought some decorations. It is going to be a big party, hubby has a big family and so far I have 40 invites so if everyone brings a guest/spouse there will be 80!!! :o

I only have 12 days before I go back to work and I'm pretty excited, hubby will be staying home with Jacob and Grandma will be helping to watch him. I'm still not sure on how hubby will be - he's not very good at changing diapers (poo ones) and I have visions of him taking Jacob outside to hose him down after his morning poo or running over to the inlaws to do it for him!

I think I'm going to make an appointment today for Jacob's first haircut!! It is getting long and I think it should be cut before his big party! Jacob is also walking now, like more then just a few steps! He walks down the hall and around the living room before reaching out for something to balance him. We went to the mall the other day and he wanted to walk so I let him, thinking he would hold my hand.... but no, he doesn't want to even do that! He just wants to walk but then he ends up taking things off the shelf and creating havoc in the store! And he still isn't 100% good and sometimes falls, of course on his face and will usually bite his lip with his sharp teeth. I feel awful when I see his blood but I'm sure that will happen lots as he grows up!

Well that's about all, he is napping now and will probably wake soon which is good cause we have Mom group today and it would be nice to feed him lunch before we go!