A little scared

So far everything seems to be going great, I don't really feel that much different. I have however been feeling a little worried about things, which I'm sure is normal but still sucks to think such negative thoughts!

I think my biggest worry is of course m/c (miscarriage) I hate to even mention it. But I can't seem to get rid of these cramps or "pulling" feeling. I have read that it is entirely normal to feel cramps for the first trimester and some women even feel this for the entire pregnancy!! I'm just worried that it won't stick, maybe it's normal to feel this or maybe I am just a worry wart but I wish I could just find out what my levels were so I knew they were high and good! :)

UPDATE: I just got off the phone with the doctors office and they told me that if I wanted I could go get my HCG levels checked (via blood work) at my nearest medi-center/ lab!! Which just happens to be right beside our office!! YEAH!! It will be such a comfort to know what my levels are! After I get them done she said that they will only call me if something isn't right (which is normally what they do) but if I still want to know my level that I should phone in on Friday to find out. Well hell yeah - I want to know my levels why else would I request the test!? gesh! ;)

I also have been thinking about stuff that will affect us in the future - like finances, worries of raising the kid right, giving birth! Things that I'm sure will turn out just fine and even though we planned this pregnancy I still feel that maybe I'm not mentally/ financially prepared!?

I don't think I want to know what the sex is of our baby, my hubby was mentioning that he kinda did want to know!? I do want to know but I also was hoping to have that element of surprise that no one seems to want anymore!? I can see why it would be nice to know - you could prepare the room to be gender specific, you could buy outfits that weren't yellow and green, and you could have the name picked out. I'm sure we have lots of time to decide what we want, we will cross that bridge later! ;)

I must also say that I am already getting a little tired of my daily errors! I am spelling things wrong when I type this out, things that I never used to spell wrong and I am getting frustrated with the number of times I have to go back to correct it! Hopefully I won't loose my brain too bad! lol I've heard that you do a number of stupid things when you are pregnant that you would have never done before and I had quite a few "blond moments" before so I can't even imagine it getting worse! :)