Top secret ....

~ My story ~

Well after 2 1/2 years of not preventing and about six months of trying to conceive we finally did it!! I am 6 days late for AF and yesterday I decided to POAS (pee on a stick), it was a Clearblue test that is suppose to show a + in the big window if you are pregnant and they have a little test window that is suppose to have a little line in it to tell you that the test worked. Well on my test I got some funny looking upside down T (which is almost a +) but the little test circle didn't have it's line, which means the test is NFG (no fucking good)!!! Grrr -- so I go to work and do nothing but think about this test all day .... should I step out and pick up another test to try and see? But if it comes up as + I'm not gonna want to sit around at work all day, waiting to go home to tell my DH!?! And if it's a - .... well that's even worse! I absolutely hated the idea of seeing another BFN (big fat negative)!!!

I waited, till the end of the day and stopped on my way home for more tests. Then I waited some more till this morning when I took my BBT (basal body temp), which had dropped from the days prior - which had me a little worried and I started thinking that I may as well not even bother testing. But I did anyway, First Response Early Results, and I saw two lines!! That's a BFP (big fat positive) in my books!!

So now I decided that I should start a journal to keep track of all my funny symptoms - everything I think you need to know!? Things that no one told me about! On that note I would like to recommend a book I have already read and thought was great !! "The Girlfriends Guide to Pregnancy" it told me lots of stuff that not even my bestest girlfriend told me! But I think there is more, more that the book didn't share, more dark and dirty secrets of pregnancy that nobody likes to talk about! ? Maybe I'm wrong but you will find out - in due time! ;) lol