Almost Christmas

I know... it's been a while and really for no particular reason, I'm not super busy and I haven't really been doing that much - guess I'm just lazy?!

So a few things are new ... I don't feel so good today (either I ate something bad or I have a stomach bug), so far Jacob looks OK he is just sleeping more which could be from his teething (none have popped out yet) and today is Mom group day but I think we will stay home. I don't want to spread my germs if I do have any and it is suppose to be really cold out.

We started feeding Jacob real food and I must say I haven't really been sticking to the rules of rice cereal first then veggies and only one new thing every three days. I just kinda give him tastes of whatever he wants, I have given him lots of different fruits already in that teething mesh sucker thing. He seems to like the cereal and I made my own mixed veggies and carrots but I don't think my blender pureed them very well and he made funny faces from the carrots. He is not as interested in his bottle as before and wants to try everything that we are eating. Christmas should be interesting with all the taste testing he will want to do! Below is a pic of the carrots.

Mom group is great, I think it is the best thing I joined - it gets me out of the house and if I run into any problems I can ask any of them. It's nice to see how different all babies are. We had a Christmas gift exchange last week that was fun, I think all the Moms showed up (which doesn't always happen) so the house was full. I posted a pic of all of Jacobs first friends, maybe it's just cause he is my kid or maybe it's cause he is the only one in green but I think he sticks out and is the first thing I see. Or maybe it's cause he is the biggest!? LOL There are only three boys in our group and the rest are all girls!

So Jacob had his 6 month check up last week and everything was good, I mentioned to the doctor about how the nurses that give him his shots said that his soft spots were starting to get pretty small and I guess that can be a big deal if they close before they are a year old so my doctor recommended that I make a 9 month appointment to check his head. Well when I went to make the appointment the nurses told me that my doctor is pregnant and due in 3 months!! I didn't even notice!! So they aren't sure what is going to happen, I imagine they would have to get another doctor in to tend to her patients but I was thinking that maybe now would be a good time to get a referral for a pediatrician then I could get a few second opinions about some thing I worry about.

I am so tired of gaining weight and I'm so ready to get back on a diet, it seems so odd to say I'm excited to diet but I just feel like crap! My body aches from having to carry around the extra weight, my chest is starting to hurt like before, I get winded going up stairs! I remember how I felt before and I miss that youthful energetic self, now I am so lazy which doesn't help me loose weight - it's such a crappy circle - I'm lazy cause I'm fat and I'm fat cause I'm lazy! I am so stuck on weather I want to go back on NS, I know it would help me get serious and keep on track but I also know that they raised their prices and it would cost me over $300 a month! I could use the "bill me later" option but it would really be no different then using a VISA to pay for it and make smaller payments making us go into debt. And do I really want to make us go into debt over loosing weight? But I would be so much happier ... I hate having a slow metabolism! If only I was thinner, I would have more energy and could be more active! And to think I'm still about 40lbs lighter then I was - I can't even remember what that felt like and I pray that I never will!