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Yesterday after work I had to stop by my Dads work to pick up his coffee mug and some other personal things. The place he works at is family run business and they were the ones that pretty much told him to take a few days off and go to a doctor so of course when I went in they wanted to know how he was and if we knew anything. I asked what my Dad had told them and of course he hasn't said much to them, that's just the way my Dad is. I didn't think it would be so hard for me to talk about but I told them that the doctors think it's cancer and that Dad probably won't be back to work for awhile (like a year!?). I felt like this is something they should know and they also need to start getting the paperwork ready for long term disability plus they might have to hire a temp to fill the spot till Dad comes back. Of course everyone there was very concerned about my Dad and I'm grate full that they made him take care of things. They were surprised that no one in the family knew anything was wrong but again this is how my Dad operates, you ask how he is and every time he says good or not bad. This however made me sad that my Dads co-workers knew more about my Father then I did!? How could I have no idea that he was sick? I feel guilty for not seeing it and bad for not visiting him more often. I guess I was so wrapped up in my life that I just never saw it? And now I'm mad at my brother cause he only lives 10 blocks away, why can't he check on Dad more often? Why can't he be the big brother he is suppose to be and look after our family? I feel like it's up to me to take care of my parents, my family, my home and somewhere in there take care of myself!?

On the diet front I have been doing OK, Monday after supper I took Jacob for a walk and although it was really hard to get going we did it, Tuesday was grocery shopping day so I barely even got to see Jacob and then last night we went for a walk again but this time we stopped at the park to let Jacob play with some kids. I think he is missing the interaction with other kids, he gets so excited when he sees other toddlers, I wish hubby would take him out more but the weather has been crappy lately? I also find it hard to believe that hubby is having such a easy time with everything, everyday I ask how it went and he says good, I ask if Jacob napped and he says yes - twice! A morning hour nap and afternoon two hour nap!? WTF!? I had a hard time getting him to nap once on most days how does he do it? When I ask that hubby just says he tuckers Jacob out by playing with him!? Now is he insinuating that I never played with Jacob? Cause I did and we went out almost everyday to get fresh air!? I wish he was having a hard time with it just so I would know that it wasn't me, that I'm not a horrible mother that can't seem to get her kid to nap.

I'm shopping for a new computer, soon. But there are so many choices, desktop or laptop and what do I want it to do, how many GB/ MB? I'm still waiting for hubby to get my photos off the old computer and hopefully he gets that done soon! I'm not sure what he does while Jacob naps all day but I don't want to ask. So far he has helped out a bit with house work, Mondays is vacuuming day and dishes are usually always done by the time I get home. He tries to stay on top of garbage duty but that has always been his job. I really need to get my bathroom washed and I have weeds in my flower beds that are taller then the flowers!!! This weekend I'm taking Jacob to the zoo for the first time, I'm pretty excited and hopefully the weather co-operates!