Need more sleep!! :(

This picture is a little old now but I wasn't sure if I shared my bean bag story!? Sooo ... I thought it would be fun for Jacob to have a bean bag chair, little did I know that you had to put the beans in the bag yourself and when the directions recommended filling the bag in your tub I kinda ignored them and decided to fill it in the living room!! I learned the hard way on why they recommend doing it in the tub!! It was a complete mess but Jacob had fun and all I could do was laugh!!

Everyday I find that my love grows for him and although some days are terribly frustrating lately I have been seeing all the positives. He is such a little smarty pants but maybe I'm just by ass? He seems to learn things that I don't feel like we taught him but he watches and learns then shows us what he knows. He now has to have bubbles in his bath every night and wants to be the one to put them in, and will put the bottle back after we are finished. He is becoming such a little boy, it just amazes me at how far he has come and yet has so much more to learn!

We spent the night last night in the ER, Jacob has been sick for a few days and his cough sounded really bad so we took him in. It is frustrating that they make kids and babies wait so long in emergency, you would think they would try to get them out fast. There was one little girl there that had a broken collar bone and had been there for 3 hours, waiting to see a doctor!! We were there for 2 hours and Jacob was getting quite restless by the end of that! Turns out to be just a viral infection but there was no harm in getting him checked out, he should start feeling better soon~?

Sleep has not been on my list of things to do lately, with Jacob being sick the nights are even longer then before BUT on a plus note he went the entire night without having milk, we just gave him water and he seemed to be OK with that!? We tried to do it again last night but he wanted his milk, we will keep trying to swap out that night bottle of milk with water and hopefully he just wont wake anymore!? Plus with him being sick he has a hard time sleeping on his back so we tried putting a pillow in his crib to elevate his head but we end up sleeping with him on the couch for a bit or bringing him into our bed.

I feel like everyone around me is sick lately, everything from a simple cold to terminal cancer! It's mentally exhausting and you mix that in with being physically exhausted and you end up with an emotional basket case! Ready to snap at the smallest thing! I almost snapped on my hubby when I found out he cancelled my pvr recording for Biggest Loser and we watched Hell's Kitchen instead!! But then I realized it's just a TV show and that maybe I could watch the episode on the net? The new guy at work is so funny and makes me laugh almost everyday, like a hard belly laugh and I have to catch my breath. The only problem with this is that since I am on the verge of snapping I tend to cry when I laugh hard and it feels good but it's like a window opening that could be a disaster at work. It's just hard right now to be strong and stay strong, I feel like my brother isn't doing his part and I'm sure he feels like he is doing everything!? I want to do more for my Dad but it's hard when you have young children and live so far away!? I might just have to take a week to help Dad out, he has been talking about selling his house but personally I think it should get a little TLC before listing. He just wants to list it "as is" and will probably loose out on thousands of dollars just cause he doesn't want to spend a few hundred.

Anyway .... here is a pick of the finished bean bag and Jacob enjoying a snack on it.