lots on my plate

So not literally "lots on my plate" but I do have lots on the go right now, we are trying to get the backyard finished and play set assembled in time for Jacobs 2nd birthday party (June 12th) and of course it's not just a matter of putting up a new swing set. We had a large cement pad in the middle of our yard that we had to jackhammer and take to the dump, then there were two large tree stumps that we needed to use a stump grinder on and then we decided to get rid of the grass and put in artificial grass!! Which somehow involved the removal of our fence and now we have to add that to the list! We are actually on track for the yard work part but the artificial grass (that I ordered today) is going to take 8-10 days to get which means it won't even get here till around June 8th - 3 days before the party!!! And we can't really build the play set until the grass is laid cause it goes on top! I pray that the grass will come early and we can get it all done, or else my backyard will be big dirty mess for all the kids to play in!! :(

We are also in the process of purchasing a travel trailer so that Jacob and I can spend more time at the track with hubby but this is becoming a more difficult process then I had hoped!? I feel like we are spending LOTS of money right now when we should be saving or catching up on other bills?! And although I'm almost certain that things will work out in the end, I can't help but worry about it all!?

My Dad just got admitted in the hospital again but I think this time might be for longer then last? I think he is tired, tired of fighting a loosing battle, tired of feeling like crap all the time, tired of living. My SIL thinks that he wants to hear me and my brother tell him that we are 'ok' with him not continuing treatment that that we are will be ok and are ready for what is to come. And although I feel like I am mentally ready to say my good-byes and I think I might be strong enough to handle what is to come I know that will probably not be the case. I will be a babbling fool, it will hit me hard and I will probably not handle it well. Even though it will be an end to his suffering and I've had almost a year to prepare for it - I still don't want to face what will happen.

I haven't been to the gym for over a week and feel like I might have been "bad" on the weekend, I also noticed that my energy level isn't as high as it was when I went more often. But I did plant my flowers yesterday, which I thought was a good workout and gymnastics with Jacob makes me sweat! I got hubby to come to the gymnastics class last Saturday and he took some pictures so I just need to get them off my phone and I can post a few on here!! I am really enjoying the gymnastics class and I feel like Jacob is learning a lot too! He practices his "donkey kicks" at home and "stop hands" I'm actually surprised that he remembers when I ask him to do donkey kicks and he does them. I loves the "popcorn" at the end of class and usually sits there with a huge smile, I will have to try and get video of it.

So that's about all, hopefully things will work out, I'm sure they will, just will they work out in time for everything else!?!?