postpartum ?

*** WARNING *** This post is a pity post and may seem a little depressing to most readers! I just need to vent it out and hopefully this will help?

Do you think it is possible for a Dad to have postpartum depression?? Seriously, I think my hubby has it!? I get so jealous of other Moms talk about their perfect husband that jumps at the chance to hold their child, they hate having to go to work and leave their child at home. Lately my hubby is coming home later and later (usually 5am on weekends!!!) then he is out the door again by 8am, how he gets by on only 3-5 hours of sleep is beyond me! This morning was the first time in a long time that I remember him feeding Jacob and I can't recall the last time he was alone with him?! I had to ask the inlaws to watch Jacob the last time I had plans to go out cause hubby was "too busy" in the garage. I think if it wasn't for me taking pics and video he wouldn't see half the changes Jacob is going through and the sad part about that is that it's not like he works out of town - he works out of the garage in the backyard!! He could come in any time he wants but usually it's always around noon (when Jacob is down for his nap and hubby grabs lunch) then again around 4pm for supper (so he might sit with Jacob for about an hour while they watch TV) and the next time he comes in the house isn't until well after 8pm (Jacobs bedtime). I feel like a single Mom and I suppose it was me that wanted to get pregnant more then him but you just can't help but love the little guy! I don't understand and I really don't feel good about the whole situation, lately I wonder if I would really miss much if he (hubby) wasn't here!? Pretty sad hey? I try to talk to him about it but he just rolls his eyes and says I'm talking foolish but I often wonder what could he be doing at 5 in the morning when most restaurants/ lounges close at 2am? I'm sure things will get better after race season is over but what about next year? Am I going to have to go through this every year? Cause I don't think I can!