A sad month

This past weekend was emotionally exhausting, we found out on Friday morning that my hubbies Grandmas best friend which we always referred to as a 2nd Grandma, had passed away. She was battling lung cancer and went from bad to worse in a very short time and even though it was sort of expected that she was going to pass it still came as a shock as most deaths do. Then on Sunday we got a phone call from my inlaws saying that Gma wasn't doing so well and had coded the night before. We were suppose to work at the track that day but it was soooo foggy that we knew we weren't going to be racing for a while so hubby and I went to go see Gma in the hospital. She didn't look good at all, her oxygen was super low and she didn't even really look like she was awake.

Later that day I Jacob had a birthday party to go to, his day home Moms daughters 3rd bday. So we went and tried to have a good time, Dora came to the party too!! She was a big hit with all the kids. There was a face painter there that did a awesome job, so I grabbed one of her cards - maybe next year I will give her a call for Jacobs party. They had pinatas, one of Dora filled with girl stuff and and one of Diego filled with boy type toys. The kids loved picking up all the candy and toys and putting them in their little baggies (another great idea)!! The Mom made the cake, which I think turned out amazing and tasted pretty darn good too!! It was fun, and I think Jacob enjoyed himself too! Then as I was leaving I checked my phone and saw a message from one of hubbies relatives telling me that Gma had passed!?!? I of course didn't believe her right away, I mean we just saw Gma that morning and yes she did look super sick but her oxygen was going up when we left and I had hope that she would get better. Maybe I was naive, as usual, so of course I call my hubby right away and see if he heard anything and he said yes... he got a call from his parents a few hours prior but didn't call me cause he knew I was at the party.

I still feel like it is all too much to handle all at once, I am very overwhelmed, trying to deal with the loss of a great lady that cared a lot for our family and then not even 3 days later the loss of a Grandma that I know loved Jacob more then words and would give anything to see him smile. The funerals are planned for this weekend and the beginning of next week. I just know I'm going to be emotional about it all. I also know that it probably isn't over yet, my Dad is now transferred to a Extended Living place and I have to clean out his house. The reality of how sick he is getting is starting to sink in as well, I feel like one of these days the reality of being alone is going to hit me. All the ones we love are being taken away, some before they even have a chance to get old.