So after a busy few days, a funeral on Saturday and another yesterday we can finally relax a bit and have some peace. Although I'm still worried about my Dad and when that time will come but I went to go see him last night and he looked pretty good.
I feel exhausted, mostly mentally exhausted but this morning I woke feeling like I ran a marathon. My legs and hips ache, my eyes feel like I've been awake for 3 days straight and I am generally just feeling kinda blah. I am thankful right now that my hubby is trying to help me around the house and taking care of things but I do notice that the laundry hamper is getting fuller and the dust bunnies are getting bigger?! I have decided to go see my Dad twice a week, which will make it harder to get chores done around the house, since I work all week and weekends at the track, but really the chores will always be there... Dad will not. I also need to find the time to get back to my Dads and help pack more stuff up or hopefully plan a garage sale for October?
It was so sad at Grandmas funeral, Jacob kept wanting to see Great Nanny and was trying to get me to go see her too. The casket was open and apparently she looked really good, but I did not have the guts to go see her. I was worried that I would take one look at her and break down, it took everything I had to not fall apart as it was never mind seeing her!? When they closed the casket for us to take her into the room he looked at me and said "Nanny hiding?" it was cute but at the same time made me tear up (and still does as I type this). During the service he kept telling me that he wanted to see Nanny, I think it will be hard to explain to him that she is gone, she a very special lady in his life.
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